come on , that's my life

damn . everything just doesn’t seems right -.-
fuck .
CANT TAKE IT ANYMOREEEEE.
“nobody understands” , i hate to say this but its a fact.
all my top 3 friends are all overseas.
who will cares if i confide to them ?
RAWR.
sucks man .
there’s no one for me to depend on .
to youyouyou,
i am just a substitute when others are not there for u ,
argh god damn it i’ve enuf . I’M FKING PISS OFF WITH EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sick and tired of writing compo on u -.-
but nvm , shall write this last one.
hahaha . okay i cant wait for friday and then we’re off .
OMGGGGGGGGG, NIKKI GOING JAPAN!!!!!!!!
sad nor , all friend going overseas
Lisa go 1 month 2 week,
nikki go 1 week ,
omgggggg so lonely
then i shall study hard during the period without them . heheh
aw , really wanna know what you’re thinking of me now.
Did ur view change on me  ?
You once said that i shouldnt be so close to you ,
then you said i managed to get in ur layers of bubble.
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww,
how now ? in lost now .

Friendship often ends in love; but love in friendship–never.
Charles Caleb Colton

It’s no good trying to keep up old friendships. It’s painful for both sides. The fact is, one grows out of people, and the only thing is to face it.
W. Somerset Maugham

Another day is passing
And still there is no word
On how your life is going
And who is in your world

I pray you will consider
These words I write to you
I liked you in my life
Yet maybe now it’s through

I don’t want to see
our relationship come to an end
And I don’t want to find
our lives standing still

We are moving towards the end
And we really ought to wait
Because God planted something special
Deep within our hearts

I know your life is hectic
You are busy all day through
My life is busy also
But I still think of you

I want to send my love
And remind you of these things
Just so you will know
You mean so much to me

Jenny

was finding some friendship quote and poems , and heheh , here is all the good one that i like to show.
sometimes i wonder whether by sms-ing a friend/best friend daily ,you’ll be able to keep the friendship alive.
maybe , but how high is the chances ?
Some best/good friends we don’t talk to them in sch ,
you wish you’ve had more time with the person , but the wish will never come true.
you wish a you could have a bestfriend you could really call he/her yours.
but that won’t happen , you never know whether a person is true to you.
maybe the person says “you’re my bestfriend” , it could be true for that moment , but it wont last.
maybe it was just to cheer you up or just to lie so you could stop asking that question to him/her.
So anyway i just realised , i could never write a happy compo.
I scored 20++ for horror , for sadness , but 19 and below for happiness.
Why?
I recently watch this show , it says , a person could never express happiness if he/she never felt one.
Maybe there is too much sadness in my life , or i am just a person who is just so negative.
I was thinking of this ytd before i slept.
Will our friendship last when we went separate schools?
Will we still sms each other ?
Will you remember me?
Will you call me one day and say lets go out ?
. i am so scared of losing friends, especially those i cherished so much.
Some say , you gain more than you lose.
i dont think so.
i think i’ve lose a lot of friends.
but , thinking of it doesn’t help.
do you think by sending a message to those you’ve lost , and you think they will give a damn?
no. IF the person doesn’t bothers about replying your message,
you will know how much you don’[t matter to the person.
We do have to understand a person cant be there for you , always
But how does it feels like when you’re down , you need a hug , you wish someone understand you,
but the person was never there.
The person doesn’t care.
How does it feel?
Would you cry for hours?
Yes, i did that.
i dunno why i cried for hours,
I wish i could hold back my tears,
but too bad , i’m just too emotional.
lalala, i think things are getting worst this month.
really.
but yaw , what can i do ?
be thickskin and say , lets get back together?
Some things are better left unattended , then to face it to make things worst.
I wish i had a bestfriend who would mean it when he/she calls me bestfriend
Who would give me a hug when i need one,
Who would always believe in me .
Who would always tries to be there for me,
Who would say some words to make me happy when i’m down.
Who would shares my emotions with me,
Who would care for me,
Who would always remember me,
Who would let me be the first to know when he/she is down or whatever

Maybe i had one ,
do i ?
will anyone answers that ?
sometimes you do get jealous when your bestfriend is being so close to others but not you.
How does it feel like calling each other bestfriend but treat each other like strangers in sch?
I really want to know whether you mean it when you say i am your bestfriend.
What am i to you ? , really.
You don’t seems to care anymore.
What you expect me to do ?
Oh , i am irritating i know.
But that’s me.
Sorry but yaw , i can’t control myself.
I wish we would be back like how we used to , but we can’t.
Ever since you start not trusting me , i know how much i mean to you.
Is it better for me to lie to myself and pretend everything doesn’t hurt?
Last time whether you said something sweet to me ,
I would be so happy,
but now i don’t feel anything.
Though i’m always anticipating your message,
but i guess it was just that we message every day that i got used to it.
But youknow , it really hurts a lot when you said messaging me doesn’t mean anything to you.
hahaha, it felt like the past few years of friendship doesn’t matters.
So sad,  feel like crying now.
promises we had , do we obide to it ?
our promise was ” no secrets ” .
You said you were disappointed when i hid things from you,
but did you trust what i was doing?
You asked why didn’t i trust you,
but the fact was did you trust me?
Was i ever important to you?
I wish you would tell me your problems like you used to ,
So that our friendship won’t be so drifted.
Will i ever get the letter you promised to write on my birthday?
I wish things never turn out to be like that.
Did we both lose interest ?
Did you ,
Did i ?
You did , i know.
I want to get you back.
But i can’t.
Can we revive our strong friendship?
Will you care once more ?
I seriously trust you a lot , i seriously cherish you a lot, i seriously hope our friendship last
can we ?